Does It Ever End?

 After a discussion with my apartment manager, I decided to post online to Facebook, again. And here we go ...

Same Old Same Old

I can't believe I started this blog over three months ago. The thing is, nothing has changed, except that it's gotten worse. The bugs are everywhere.

The other day, my cat was hitting at the side of the bed. Not in a playful manner, but trying to hit something. I looked and there were two bed bugs. And she was trying to kill them with her paw, like she sees me killing them with my fingers. And she's started showing me where she knows the bugs are, so I can kill them for her. She's tired of being bitten, and she's smart enough to know that you need to kill them, but she just can't squash them with her paws. I'm sure she's figured out that biting them is bad, they taste terrible! And yes, I've bitten into them.

Bed Bugs!

Yes, I realize it's disgusting, but I have bed bugs. This is a major issue in my life. It is running ... and ruining ... my life. People often have a misconception about bed bugs. They think only dirty people get them, but that is wrong. Anyone can get them, and the bugs don't care how clean or dirty you or your home are. The problem is that my apartment manager refuses to treat my apartment to get rid of them.

For the longer version of the story, please click on the tab, "The Bed Bug Saga."

I've been living with the bugs for two and a half years. It consumes my life. I'm up most of the night and often most of the day, fighting and killing bugs. Squashing them, spraying them with alcohol. Whatever kills them, you know? Because of my health, I can't be spraying poison around the apartment. I kill thousands of bugs every day. Every day, every night. THOUSANDS of them. They are crawling all over me and biting me, constantly. My skin is infected, I'm allergic to them so I have bumps and itching, and because I have so many bites, my body is having a systemic reaction, where the more bites I get, the more each bite has a reaction. I have to take an antihistamine to help with the allergy. I can't sleep. Every time I fall asleep, the bugs wake me up, crawling on and biting me. I am so tired, and feel so defeated. No one should live like this.

The apartment manager has hired the same incompetent exterminator several times and he still hasn't gotten rid of the bugs. I do not want him in my apartment again! Every time he shows up, he tells me he won't be able to get rid of the bugs because I didn't do the prep. I'm friggin' disabled. I can't move furniture. I can't even do a proper cleaning. And no one wants to come in to clean for me because of the bugs.

Now the bugs are so bad that you can't get rid of them with bug spray. A heat or steam treatment is required to get rid of them, because they are EVERYWHERE. And even though it's management's fault I got the bugs in the first place, even though they keep hiring the same incompetent exterminator who doesn't get rid of them, even though I'm disabled, and even though I have no income and can't pay for treatment myself, still, the manager refuses to do her job. So, I live with the bugs.

I need help. It's to the point where I need to hire a real exterminator to get rid of the bugs. I have no money. I am looking for donations so I can hire one. I can't live like this. I've called agencies but they all say it's not their job to deal with getting management to hire someone.

Please help me.

And I do hope to move as soon as I can (which may be never, at this point), but even if I were able to move, I still have to get rid of the bugs so I don't take them with me.

Hard to see but all of those tiny dots are bed bugs on my blanket. They love the blanket.

This is gross, but I collected most of the bugs from the blanket the other night and put them into a cup. I haven't counted them, but there are hundreds of bugs. This is a fraction of how many I kill every night.

I Need Help

I need help. A lot of help. Things in my life have taken a downward turn and I don't see a way out of the hole I'm in. So, I'm asking for your help. I can't fix my problems, but maybe WE can. 

I'm asking for donations through my GoFundMe campaign:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-me-ive-fallen-and-cant-get-up

I plan to post more information about me and my situation, and I plan to update as necessary. Sometimes I can get lazy about posting, and I apologize for that in advance. I have a hard time writing when I'm feeling bad or tired, and let's face it, I'm feeling tired most of the time these days.

Thank you for visiting my blog, and thank you for your kind,

generous donations!